who am I? Malay or Chinese????
January 9, 2008 by monicafoong
Who am I? I have never ask such question to myself until recently. I think I don’t understand myself much, especially my face!!! These few days a few Malays say I look like Malay. I know I’m dark, but i think my features are totally Chinese. In my life, I have never encounter Chinese say I don’t look like a Chinese. I feel weird… a kind of weird I have never feel before. I really don’t know how to explain this kind of weird. I feel sad, but I feel happy sometimes too. Sad because I don’t look like my kind of people, sad that I’m not who I am supposed to be. Happy because I can pretend to be somebody else and cheat some people. Happy that I look like a "Malaysian"…. my colleague said my face looks like Malay, but my eyes are not, that’s why he can differentiate me and Malays. I wonder is it so "professional" of him until he can differentiate somebody’s race by looking at their eyes??? I looked at the mirror for a very long time, I really can’t see which part of my face that look like Malays. I feel annoyed… for no reason, just don’t understand why Malays say I looked like Malay, just don’t understand why all of them like to look at me. But I always remind myself that I’m a Chinese and I looked like Chinese!!!
Not a bad thing….
Hehe. No worries. I don’t remember whether I told you this, but the last time I was having my training in Hovid, a few workers there said I looked like a Malay! OMG please!